summer shudder

i should really be trying to keep up with this apartment...the place is a mess, and this is my only day off when i've got the entire place to myself....but...but...i've already done 2 loads of laundry!

it's snowing again. just lightly tho, not hard enough to leave any on the ground. i've come to the point of excepting the fact that the white stuff will be here for another few months, so i'd better get used to it. im okay with it. for now.

it's december. and so far, to be completely honest, i hate this entire fucking month. there has been absolutely nothing good about it. everything from the weather, to work, to this apartment..EVERYTHING has gone to shit. im sick of this month. i hate christmas. i hate trying to bring myself to go to the mall. the mall where copious amounts of people are. where children scream and cry, where people stop in the middle of the damn aisle to have a conversation with so-and-so, and where every fucking store seems to jack up their goddamned prices!!! FUCK!

but in 3 weeks, i will be in alberta (which i hate almost equally as much). but unlike the mall, alberta has it's perks. i've got family there. and i miss them terribly, and cant wait to see them. i can get over the cold. 3 weeks, and i will be with some of (but unfortunatly not all) my most loved. 3 weeks. 21 days. and it will be december 25th.

other then that...not much has changed. 2 of the damn fish died. im waiting for the third to croak, but he seems pretty strong. my house feels like and oven...but there is no longer thumpety thump thump upstairs. it smells of cinnamon....i dont know where im going with this.

the washer just finish. and the vacuum is giving me the stare down. and vance will be home in 2 hours. and...and....and.....