i'll cry for my mother.

right now, i cant possibly imagine the pain you are going through, and to be quite honest, i dont want to. i dont want to know the pain of losing a parent, a second parent for that matter. i dont want to know the pain of knowing that things may have been left unsaid, or undone. if i have my way, which im aware chances are i wont, i dont ever want this pain. i dont want to lose you, or dad. i wish i could have you at my side forever, a phone call away for anything i may need. for adivde and guidance, for love and understanding. but i wont, and the thought of that brings tears to my eyes.

so today i'll cry for my mother, because i can see her pain.